Sunday, May 25, 2014

dharma bum (life update!)


Everything has changed, is changing, and if you had told me that a year ago, that might have terrified me. BUT THIS CHANGE IS GOOD! Classes are almost over and I wish I'd done better but I am also not going to hold on to unchangable things; finals and Regents are coming up and I guess that's a second-ish chance. My close group of friends still persists and I am making friends still. Summer plans are kind of confusing but they are exciting, at least. I've had a huge crush on one of my best friends for months and it turns out that she felt the same way about me so now we're going out, something that I still can't believe but could not be happier about. (You should also be proud of my self-restraint when a "friend" asked me if I was experimenting. I am not even going to go into how angry this makes me, but I would just like to say that this is the most serious crush I've ever had on anyone and if someone doesn't take it seriously, then I do not want to interact with them.) And this isn't even of major importance, but this is one of the best songs I've ever listened to and it is one of my absolute favorites. (So is "Truckdrivin Neighbors Downstairs (Yellow Sweat)"Mellow Gold is heaven and it one of the best albums ever made, I swear. I'm seeing Beck on June 30, which is amazing.

I can't think of anything else! I am totally out of things to talk about! I feel lame because this is called The Style Aviator and all so I should at least post an outfit or something but I will save that for another time. That feels oddly narcissistic even though that was the whole purpose of this blog. I don't know. Oh well. I'll figure it out soon. -Britney


  1. omg britney I'm so happy for you! I obviously don't know you at all, but it seems like you didn't even really have to come to terms with a non-straight sexuality? which I envy, if that's true, because it's been a bit rough for me, but I've started coming out to people.

    Okay, real talk, though, howww did you ask her (or did she bring it up?) and what were the signs of reciprocity? Perhaps you can guess from this, but I do believe I am in a similar situation with me and my best friend.

  2. Britney, I was SO EXCITED to read your diary entries hinting at this. I've been in the same situation - when I was your age, actually - with my best friend at the time (who's my best friend again now, actually, even after a pretty messy breakup). It's lovely reliving all these feelings through reading this. I'm wishing you guys the best :)

    I look forward to reading more about this, if you choose to write about it! I don't know how you personally identify, but I personally, as a queer kid, have always wanted something a bit more reflective of my own lived experience in the rookie diaries. So happy for you!

    (also, you seem like you've got a pretty solid handle on all this - much more than I had at the time. If you ever need to talk any of this out, though, happy to chat about it. Through Rookie, I imagine you've probably got it covered as far as support networks, but just thought I'd put this out there - as I said, I had no-one at the time, and could have used someone.)