Wednesday, April 9, 2014

reunited and it feels so good (suburbia kills)

Long time, no talk! I have a lot to talk about (and it does not directly focus on style or fashion despite this blog's name, but bear with me here) and I want to start with how I feel/have felt for about a month or two now, which is a combination of adolescence in a '90s suburban town with the concept of "shock rock" and having those bands (Marilyn Manson, Nine Inch Nails-although I view NIN as WAY more than shock rock, this is just an umbrella term that describes how other people see and saw them-etc.) as an influence on life. This entire thing is so difficult to explain but having this mindset and focus has made me so happy. I am also holding back from making an entire series of blog posts about how in love with Nine Inch Nails and Trent Reznor I am-I have tickets for the NY concert this summer!-and the impact that NIN has had on me and my life; I am comfortable with calling it my absolutely favorite band, next to Nirvana. (If you've read any of my thousands of pieces of work about Kurt Cobain and Nirvana, you'll understand the significance of this.)

My attempt at explaining all of this:

This tumblr, which I made and have not updated in a few weeks but love like a child; it represents almost everything that I am talking about here:



-Marilyn Manson's Portrait of an American Family, especially "Dogma"
-Palo Alto by James Franco (I don't know how good the movie is so I am referring primarily to the book of short stories)
-A '90s suburban town, especially one with a rural area
-The "shock rock" of the '90s and how so many people were scandalized and thought that it signified the coming of the apocalypse (see: "Sympathy for the Parents" by Marilyn Manson, and watch them on the Phil Donahue show)

(I highly recommend watching the other parts as well but I thought posting all of them here might create a bit of a hassle.) 

I wish I had more content that focused on this! If I can extract some more ideas from my journal (I try not to call it that because it's not much of a journal, and assigning it this position will discourage me from using it as much) then I will edit this post because it is incredibly important to me and I feel like any attempt at explaining it will make it come off as a one-dimensional concept. It would be so great if you could just climb into my brain and see exactly what I mean.

I briefly entertained the idea of talking about outfits or something in relation to this but I feel like that seemed trivial. This isn't about clothes our outfits at all, and anything that I wear is influenced by this in some way but is not a primary factor. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like clothes do not really factor into this. I hate saying this because I'm wary of it coming off as standoffish but I feel like there would be some kind of void in this post if I didn't.

This is one of the best, most chilling songs ever written. Enjoy. 



  1. It's great to see you back on your blog as I've fallen in love with it ever stumbling across it several months ago, courtesy of reading your weekly diary on Rookie. Whether we realize it or not, music plays an enormous role in what we choose to wear and, despite holding the title of being a pretty-as-pink princess for as long as I can remember, I've always been drawn towards darker styles, particularly those influenced by the bands which you earlier mentioned.

    1. I'm so glad that you feel that way! And I definitely agree with you, music plays a much bigger role in so many sections of our lives than people give it credit for.